geotech or no geotech

last saturday, my mom voice out that maybe i should further my study in geotechnic... i was like O.o geotech? a subject that i don' t really fond of. huhu. i can still remember that i have to stay up all nite long (sumtimes) to study for this subject, as i can't really grasp all the mega-carutan in that book. huhu. usually, my study session will end up with me doodling in my note book. hahahaa. :p patot le x score. cit

anyway, i seek for an opinion from my uni frens. which by the way, a lecturer in usm, who lectures on this subject. she too recommend me to further in this field. sigh. still a scaredy-cat. =^.^= i'm not sure whether i have the strength to face the obstacles. tho S been repeatedly saying that she's convince i can succeed. she's even willing to share her notes. (to S: i know wat u up to. u wants me to be senget like u kannnn??hehehe)

to be honest, i have this passion in facilities mgt. i really am eager to broaden my knowledge in asset n facilities mgt. yet, as to date, i failed to secure a sit in that class. which really disappoint me. one level of self confidence had dropped!*gedeganggggg!!*

and to make matters worst, few weeks back, i was having breakfast with S, and our bfast routine was somehow interrupted by some pakcik who advicing us to deepen our knowledge and experience, especially in design. this really sadden me. y? i have 5 years experience, but not in that area. my experience is zoom in the road maintenance. yes, i do some design back in 2005, a road design. that was 5 years ago. F-I-V-E years ago. tsk.

maybe Allah knows whats best for me, n wanted me to explore the world of geotech?

waaaa! so damn insecure about myself!! because of that insecure feeling, this morning i make an effort to google for any info in geotech..well, why not try to refresh my memories right? who knows, maybe.maybe it will trigger my interest .hehe.

then i stumble on an article on the field investigations on the bukit antarabangsa incident. ok..it really freak me up. y? i tried to read the first para,and it ended up with...

'ape ko mencarut ni shaitonnnnnnnn!!!'

and let me remind you, its only the 1st para..no, scratch that..first few lines to be exact. so? do you tink i can survive during my master in geotech? ahahhaha.

gud luck to myself!!