my roller coster life..huhu

nothing to tell. nothing to babbling. yeah. my life is dull. except when i'm wif my baby. thehe. always with new ideas, new mischief. huhu. pening. d other day, she saw me crying. n guess what she did..she's gaves me her toys. hihi, im touch. tq dear.

nway, this week have been a very frustrating week for me.y? cause it start with one hell of a day. on Monday, projKR held the 3rd AGM..most of the CFS officer attended the AGM, cause we wants to know of our status. its already been a yr here in JKR.

wakil CFS telah usulkan kepada pengerusi ProJKRM, mengenai status lantikan CFS. dan jawapan yang kami dapat, amat mendukacitakan. kenapa? ini jawapan die...

"KP telah menyatakan bahawa..pegawai CFS sepatutnya mendapat pengalaman dan juga kepakaran setelah bekerja dengan JKR. tapi, xpe..mana2 pegawai yang tamat kontrak, dan didapati projek mereka belum tamat. kita akan cuba usulkan kepada konsultan untuk mengambil pegawai ini bekerja dengan mereka.xpe, u all teruskan semangat dan terus berdoa supaya dapat menjadi pegawai tetap"

ok..xpe kan kalau aku kate, ini sume bullshit???nak usulkan to consultant to hire kami?ok, 1st.niat itu baik..tapi, bukan ke lebih baik aku keja ngan consultant je dr dulu??experience, kepakaran..mmg kompem aku akan dpt. sorry to say, what kind of experience and expertise does they talk about?kalau pegawai tu kat cawangan pakar (pakar?)..dapat gak la dorang wat design...kalau kat business unit, insyaallah akan dapat belajar cara tuk manage project.. and what about those in the corporate sector??????what engineering aspect will us use to sell ourself to the contractor/consultant?

"ohh..i excel in filing. u dun have to worry, JKR trained me to do filing.."

"HR? i can do that too...no need to hire HR executive. u can just pay that salary to me"

"i too can organise events, meetings, trainings"

aku bebetul sentap!. maka, bermula pagi selasa, hingga la ke laaaniii...aku duk distribute my resume. dah alang2 duk kate, nak soh consultant hire...meh aku yang usulkan ke contractor or consultant, xyah tunggu mereka yang usulkan.

and lagi 1...they will propose to the consultant to hire the engineer responsible for the project..but, what about those yang x manage apa2 project? bleh explain?????

yang buat aku lagi tension, aku mase tu jenuh angkat tangan nak express aku nye x puas hati. siap melambai!! but, dorang x perasan aku. yang mana, aku rase agak sukar utk percaya. aku duk depan ok? bukan belakang...

xpe...Allah lebih mengetahui.

jump for joy

can't waitt....ooohhh...cepat la 4.30...wanna see my baby...!!

photo credited to google

physical and mentally tired

arinih emosi aku sangat terganggu. SANGAT. winamp plak cam cilake, hari nih boleh g bantai men lagu² mendayu yang boleh bikin hati aku lagi emo. selalu die pasang lagu2 yang bleh bikin hatiku gembira..cam tau2 je kan. siot tol.

patot aku hepi arinih. sebab gaji aku masuk. tapi aku x hepi. not that aku x bersyukur. aku serabot. banyak benda aku serabot. dengan keja yang serupe-aku-xyah-belajar-tinggi²..dengan nak melayan perangai si mamat-perasan-die-sgt-realistik-sedangkan-diri-sendiri-tatau-ape-maksod-realistik...aku SERABOT!!

sangat serabot.

photo credit to google.

geotech or no geotech

last saturday, my mom voice out that maybe i should further my study in geotechnic... i was like O.o geotech? a subject that i don' t really fond of. huhu. i can still remember that i have to stay up all nite long (sumtimes) to study for this subject, as i can't really grasp all the mega-carutan in that book. huhu. usually, my study session will end up with me doodling in my note book. hahahaa. :p patot le x score. cit

anyway, i seek for an opinion from my uni frens. which by the way, a lecturer in usm, who lectures on this subject. she too recommend me to further in this field. sigh. still a scaredy-cat. =^.^= i'm not sure whether i have the strength to face the obstacles. tho S been repeatedly saying that she's convince i can succeed. she's even willing to share her notes. (to S: i know wat u up to. u wants me to be senget like u kannnn??hehehe)

to be honest, i have this passion in facilities mgt. i really am eager to broaden my knowledge in asset n facilities mgt. yet, as to date, i failed to secure a sit in that class. which really disappoint me. one level of self confidence had dropped!*gedeganggggg!!*

and to make matters worst, few weeks back, i was having breakfast with S, and our bfast routine was somehow interrupted by some pakcik who advicing us to deepen our knowledge and experience, especially in design. this really sadden me. y? i have 5 years experience, but not in that area. my experience is zoom in the road maintenance. yes, i do some design back in 2005, a road design. that was 5 years ago. F-I-V-E years ago. tsk.

maybe Allah knows whats best for me, n wanted me to explore the world of geotech?

waaaa! so damn insecure about myself!! because of that insecure feeling, this morning i make an effort to google for any info in geotech..well, why not try to refresh my memories right? who knows, maybe.maybe it will trigger my interest .hehe.

then i stumble on an article on the field investigations on the bukit antarabangsa incident. ok..it really freak me up. y? i tried to read the first para,and it ended up with...

'ape ko mencarut ni shaitonnnnnnnn!!!'

and let me remind you, its only the 1st para..no, scratch that..first few lines to be exact. so? do you tink i can survive during my master in geotech? ahahhaha.

gud luck to myself!!

kamera

Panasonic Lumix DMC-GH1

i really lovesss this. huhu. i have let go of my D80 to my lil bro gf, yes aku mmg sayang D80 aku tu. banyak jasa. tapi atas sebab² tertentu, i have to let my baby go.

nway, i stumble upon this camera few weeks back. love at first sight. hahaha. rega aku x ingat aritu.RM3k++ kot. T____T tp bile fikir2 balik, besar gak kamera ni. i want sumthing small that i can squeeze it into my bag. kalau la GH1 ni aku leh kompek2kan masuk beg. hehehe.

kenapa tetibe aku jadi gile kamerA?sebab si soe tadi duk tanya aku macam² pasal kamera. so, secara tidak sengaja, aku TER-racun untuk berkamera balik. huhu.

tah bileee la aku nak dapat balik kamera. huhu.

sesi soal jawab

2 hari nih, aku wat keja sambil dengar ceramah Ustaz Azhar, pastu gelak sengsorang cam org gile. ustaz ni best, penjelasan die senang nak paham..cume die cakap tganu. kekadang tu x paham gak de certain2 term die..nway, ade sorang ni bagi soklan kt ustaz tu..soklan dia camni...

"bolehkah saya bersetubuh dengan isteri saya pada malam pertama. sila jawab betul-betul"

ustaz tu jawab...

"Haram jima' isteri pada malam pertama.....
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di khalayak ramai.kalau dlm bilik tu, mapuh mung la.."

ahahahahahah! i really like this ustaz...kalau korang busan2 tu, dengar la ceramah die. dijamin puas hati. hehe.

my precious arianna syafiqah

'meeee..yop year..'

hihi. my lil girl cakap ni kt aku aritu. sambil tgn die amik tgn aku and letak kat gearknob. aaaaa..dah ley agak x, die nak soh aku wat apeR?

hehehe..anak aku nak soh aku drop gear.kasi keta aku pick up skit. ngeee!! she's learning and growing..and she's doing it FAST! uish...cepatnya anak mummy membesar. she'll be 3 on the 20th March.

eeqa dearie, jangan besar cepat2 sangat...mummy needs you. mummy wants to play with you. and if you do grow (which u will eventually), i hope that we can be the bestest buddy. you can share everything with me. insyaAllah, i'll be there in hi and low. I pray that you will grow into a beautiful, obedient, faithful, successful women. May your life bless with all the joy, prosperity, wealth..I am sorry if i am not the perfect mummy for you. pls know that i am trying my best to be one, InsyaAllah..

I love you so much, and i misses you. You will always be my lil girl. :)

srkjdp 1990 till 1993

sekolah. aku mula melangkah ke zaman sekolah di SR Zainab 2. zaman tadika tu aku x amik kire.sbb aku selalu monteng. hence, no graduation pic. aku rasa..adik beradik aku sume xde gambar grads time tadika. ahhaha. semua kaki monteng. aiyo....

nway, aku sekolah kt SR Zainab 2 nih kejap je..up till darjah 3..tu pon, mid of year 1990, aku berpindah ke SRK Jalan Dato Palembang, Melaka. sekolah ni top la gak. a. sukan..akademik , sume nya bagus. aku pon salah sorang yang suke amik bahagian dlm sukan. aktif dlm hoki n olahraga.

time sekolah kt Dato Palembang nih, memories yang aku still ingat..time rehat, mesti berebot nak men chop tiang kat tepi bilik cikgu. ahahhaa.gile. bukan nk g makan, tau nak main aje. kalau x pon, men galah panjang. poooonnnn dekat ngan bilik cikgu. ahahaha. kalau mana2 yang x nak berpeloh, dorang pon berekreasi. gak hehe. dorang akan cari port yang a lil bit senyap. n berpermukaan mesti rata. aaaa..tau ape dorang wat? dorang akan men game pemadam!alaa..pemadam yang ade lambang negara tu. dulu time sekolah, penoh pencil box ngan pemadam!and...biasenya akan ada satu tempat khas dlm pencil box tu, utk pemadam ko yang 'kuat'..ahahaha. cam siot je.

Exhibit 1204893: senjata-senjata rahsia

and time sekolah dulu, aku cukup tensen kalau tetibe pemadam aku ilang. ade la tu tukang mengebas, semata2 nak main game tu. xpela, aku halalkan sesapa yang suke mencopet pemadam aku tu. hehe.

masa aku sekolah rendah, cikgu2 die sume garang...cikgu2 yang top, known for their garang-ness..Cikgu Nyemah, die ni ajar maths..apesal aku asyik jumpe cikgu math sume garang2 ar??? aku ingat cikgu nyemah nih, kalau sesapa bising or x dengar ape die duk membebel kat depan tu..tetibe je nanti ade pemadam papan itam (yang kain, bulat tu) terbang!kalau x silap aku, mangsa favourite die, Vicky. hehe. he's an Indian, so..bayangkan la kalau duster tu dah bertepek kat muke die. hehe. aku x penah kena..sbb aku duduk DEPAN!!front row!!memang buang tebiat kalau tido dalam kelas cikgu nyemah. huhu.

Exhibit A: board duster

pastu, Ustaz Hassan ..dia nih, suke menggunakan teknik mengetuk kuku ngan pencil box kalau kuku panjang..kalau budak lelaki, rambot panjang..sile bersiap sedia utk ditarik sideburn..aku tengok kalau bdk2 laki, terjengkit2 kaki tahan sakit..huhu..n die suke sebat montot gune pembaris kayu yang panjang tu. tapi bebudak lelaki je yang kena. pompuan kena ketuk ngan pencil box aje. hihi.

pastu, cikgu disiplin. Cikgu Mohd Nor, or also known as Gaban..he teaches Alam dan Manusia..aku pon kurang pasti kenapa dia dpt gelaran Gaban...aku x penah lak tengok die wat aksi gaban..maybe sebab badan die yang sasa besar tu kot. and die sangat suke bawak 'pedang' (pedang=rotan) ke mana mana saja die pegi. sape nakal je, time time tu gak die libas. huhuhu. aku rase its more appropriate panggil die Gorgon. n not Gaban. huhu. sorry cikgu!

and cikgu PJ. cikgu Machap. tapi die la punca aku cintakan hoki.hehehe.cinta tu. gedik tul. aku penah masa tu training lompat pagar, aku tergolek sbb kaki aku tersadung. aku wat aksi slide gak la atas tanah yg berbatu-batu itu. bukan dpt simpati, siap kena marah laie ade. huhu. dia kate aku leka. ye la kot. tah ape aku pikir pon aku tatau. tau2 je nampak batu2 kecik. hoho!

tapi aku rasa, cikgu aku time sekolah rendah sumenya garang2 ar...Cikgu Talha..cikgu yang ajar muzik tu pon garang. aaa..cite pasal muzik, aku cukop suke. ahahaha. peberet subjek ni. aku dulu join choir. hoho!! syok woo. camana leh lepas audition pon aku tatau. hek hek. bes join benda2 kesenian nih. as i said tadi, aku sangat aktif time sekolah rendah. cakap je, choir..joget2..senamrobik..kompem ade muke aku kt celah2 tu..and aku ade gak masuk tahfiz...pertandingan bacaan sajak..syair..pertandingan bercerita. hihi. i was also the head librarian. hehe. aku ingat, aku berebot this position with dat chinese boy. huhu. so, what does that tell u? it tells u dat..yang aku nih sebenarnya gile glamer. haha. xde ar. its fun. join benda2 nih. one way of building ur self-confidence. kan? ke itu semata2 nak sedapkan ati aku?ahahaha. :p

bile ingat2 balik zaman sekolah rendah, memang seronok. K reminded me of my one-of-a-kind tudung that i wear during my skool days in Dato Palembang. hihi. gosh! aku pon x ingat pasal tudung tu. hehehe. nnt la, kalau ade gamba2 aku time skolah rendah.aku upload.

tu serba sikit citer masa aku sekolah rendah..banyak laie kisah2 aku kat sekolah ni. sangat banyak. its all coming back to me.

thank u guys for all the memories. i will cherish it till the end of my life.